The world likes to teach us that having doubts is a sign that something is wrong in this situation. Or, if it is doubts about the relationship, you should be cautious and not rush to fall in love or get married.

Even in TV gold news movie drama, we see that having doubts must mean that someone is possibly “up to no good” and doesn’t deserve our attention.

We hardly see that having doubts is a signal that tells us to look deeper within ourselves.

In a set of previous articles (which I have linked together) I talked about the woman of Croatianamed Nakitawriting me in a ohio jail inviting me to participate in a global mindfulness meditation for world peace, to be held on December 22, 2010 at 9:30 pm

I would participate from my bunk in the often violent Dinner of the cell block. I must say that I certainly had doubts about the validity of this event, a scam or some kind of hoax I think.

I tossed out the thought of my doubts about the relationship with this woman as I have never met her before, she texts me out of the blue and “I’m supposed to trust her” were more disturbing thoughts.

I wondered, “Was the new relationship with Nakita I was having doubts?

or was it something else?

That was until I heard some words in a conversation from other inmates that I took as a sign from the universe, or, shall we say, from the Holy Spirit, that it must indeed be a real live event.

Why was I making judgments and having my doubts?

Even with these kind thoughts and the warning signal from the Holy Spirit, or Karma, as I mentioned in a previous article, I fell back again to vigilant questioning in my mind and having doubts.

This time it was about time zones around the world.

why was there Nakita scheduled this “meeting of the minds” for 9:30 pm ET, which was very convenient for me?

Again, a positive and correct thought entered my mind, suggesting that perhaps Nakita was not the organizer of this event. It was quite possible that it could have been organized, say, by an individual or group in the Far East, or even Australia.

She never said that she was the creator, so why did I cling to that idea?

My doubts turned more towards confidence when I realized like bright rays of sunlight breaking through a layer of clouds: Why should I be so worried about all this anyway? It didn’t really matter who the organizer was or what time it happened.

Feelings of inner peace.

With that enduring and peaceful thought, I remembered a lesson from A Course in Miracles teaching that, “Time was only real when the Holy Spirit used it,” and He was using it for this event.

He urged me to simply stop having doubts and any negative mind attempts to intrude on my thought process about this mindfulness meditation event, and I proceeded to set my sights on the inner peace I felt overall about the whole idea. .

Any wrong thoughts or having ego doubts would only block the extension of others’ thoughts, regardless of how many minds were involved in this mindfulness meditation.

It would also block my joy, which was really the most important thing to consider here. Another thought struck me that if my own joy was blocked, then I would perceive myself as dissatisfied.

I continued to sense that this was a necessary emotion for me, down there, deep in the prison rabbit hole, one that would give me a sense of accomplishment and fulfillment, and above all, wholeness.

What achievement am I referring to?

I’ll let you answer that for yourself, as you contemplate the following passage from A Course in Miracles:

“The Spirit knows that the conscience of all his brothers is included in his own, as it is included in God. The power of the entire Filiation and of its Creator is, therefore, the very fullness of the spirit, which makes both whole and His creations equal in perfection. The ego cannot prevail against a totality that includes God, and all totality must include God.”

We all seem to be cautious when we have fears and doubts, but the most wonderful associations we have with each other is being honest enough to share our feelings.

For peace and love in your relationships.